About 6 months ago I decided to stop taking birth control in an effort to do anything I can to bring back my libido. I'm not sure that any study has proven that birth control has a direct negative effect on libido, but I do not want to take any chances. Plus, I really don't need to take it considering I haven't even attempted to have sex in almost a year.
So, I think it took a few months for all of the drugs to get out of my system, but in the last couple months I can really feel a difference. Not with libido, with sanity. My last few periods have been pretty tough and I think it's because I'm not taking BC anymore. For the past week I have had a headache and been extremely tired. Today I burst into tears for really no reason and I've just been lethargic the past few days. The cramping actually wasn't so bad during this period, but my last one and the on before it came with probably the worst cramps I've ever had.
It sucks that either way I go, I pay a price. But I'm not willing to go back to BC just yet. If there is any chance that it effects my libido, I will sacrifice a little monthly pain and insanity to hopefully be able to get horny again.
In related news, I just had my first period using only cloth pads. After reading Pearl's entry about cloth pads I decided to try them out in an effort to keep my vagina away from as many potential irritants as possible.
What I like about cloth pads:
-Most importantly, and the reason I will continue to use them, my vagina feels better than with disposable pads. I don't get as itchy and I really do feel like my vagina can "breathe" more.
-they are pretty
-they are environmentally friendly
What I don't like about cloth pads:
-they scrunch my underwear where they snap and it makes me have a sort of wedgie all the time. I got some extender snaps, and they help some, but there's still a bit of wedginess.
-Sitting for long periods of time is uncomfortable in these pads because they are thicker than what I'm used to. It's not the sitting/burning problem I have, but just a discomfort in my butt area.
-they are more high maintenance because of the cleaning process.
Regardless of the down sides, I will continue to use them. My vagina just feels better and that's the most important thing. I can live with the other stuff if they are helping make my vagina feel better. Thanks for the suggestion Pearl!