Then he did the Q-tip test. In almost all the places that I had originally given a grade of 7 out of 10 on the pain scale had NO PAIN AT ALL when he touched them with the q-tip. There was one area that is still sensitive and I know why, because I haven't been putting the estradiol there when it turns out I should have been. But this is really something. I mean, 3 months ago that q-tip made me cringe in pain and yesterday, other than that one spot, there was zero pain. He also tested my muscles and even they were improved even though I haven't been doing PT in the last 3 months. However, it makes perfect sense that when there's less pain, the muscles won't involuntarily clench as much.
They took blood in order to check my hormone status now. I have a feeling that it may be higher, but still not as high as it should be. In Dr. G's words, I did have the hormones of a 45 year old menopausal woman, so I'm hoping to at least be down to a 40 year old pre-menopausal woman at this point (I'm 27 in reality). Dr. G. asked me if I've been feeling any more desire or even had any sexy dreams or anything like that. Unfortunately, no. However last night I had one of those naked in public dreams, does that count?
Dr. G. still doesn't seem like he thinks that there is any need for me to be on anxiety meds, but he said he was okay with it. So I will continue to take those and see if they can just give me the nudge I need to break through my sexual fear.
So I'm supposed to continue using the Estradiol, especially in the spot that I've been missing, and I'm also supposed to start back with PT to get those muscles where they should be. I feel very encouraged and hopeful about all the physical stuff.
And I continue to hope that once the physical stuff is solved, the mental stuff will start loosening up too.